My journey through this physical world has almost always been one motivated by seeking the truth, and sometimes trying to run away from the truth.  I was fortunate enough to have parents who continually made appointments for me with psychics, Huna Kane practitioners, and other practitioners of different modalities of healing.  I was always a passenger on these adventures, not taking the wheel and steering, but not shutting out the opportunities either.  I was terrified most of my young life until my 30’s. This fear drove most of my decisions, I didn’t consciously realize what was happening, I just remember the feeling of fear surrounding every thing, fear of being wrong, of doing things wrong, of offending someone, of being judged, of being hurt, of being shunned, of being accepted, of being me.

I was also fortunate because my dad’s spiritual and healing journey led him to be a teacher and practitioner of hypnotherapy, timeline therapy, Huna and other healing modalities.  I had the opportunity to engage in healing from a young age although I didn’t fully embrace it until later in life.  I had the opportunity to see, hear and experience different belief structures that continually fed my desire to seek the truth.  I continued to have the same experience with every belief structure I delved into, eventually I would come to a place in the teaching that I knew was not truth.  I over looked these aspects and just took what I believed was true from it and continued to seek.

I feel that I have been guided and supported throughout my life.  I used to say that I rarely did anything ‘wrong’ because I ALWAYS got caught the first time.  I feel like the laws of the universe kept me from getting too lost in my addictions and distractions. I had my first major break through / break down during my first teaching job in a Northern community.  I was surrounded by so much neglect and heart ache it resonated with my own feelings of neglect and heart ache and I could no longer avoid it.  This experience started me moving down a more intentional path of healing. I left the teaching profession, got on EI and had the amazing fortune to be supported by one of my beautiful cousins.  This gave me opportunities.  I studied Reiki and became a Reiki master in Usui and Karuna Reiki. I increased my belief in the power of healing, I looked at some of my fears and called myself out, allowing myself to overcome some of them. But, unfortunately I also squandered much of that opportunity in resistance.  I was so scared to truly feel the emotions that had bubbled over that I sought solace in marijuana, alcohol and building up my facade.

Again, the laws of the universe would not let me get caught in those addictions too deeply, I was always slightly allergic to alcohol and had immediate adverse reactions to it.  I tried quite diligently to drink for about 5 years.  I was so comforted by the social balm it provided, I felt like I finally fit in, or at least didn’t care if I didn’t, but I could not maintain it.  It was just so bad for me.  The fear in me was still ever present, I didn’t know what the fear was about, I just knew it was influencing me to make ‘safe’ decisions and to keep myself protected from the world.  In reality it was allowing me to hide behind this facade I was creating.  Throughout this time I continued to seek the truth, to read, and learn and question, still always being left with the knowledge that what I was learning was not quite truth.

I always had a driving force within me to do things out of the norm, it might surprise those who know me, but I held back, all the time.  I was very aware that even my reserve was so very different from most people’s norms and comfort zones.  This separation led me to seek a home in the country where I could be with nature and be me, or at least be away from some of the expectations I put on myself to be ‘acceptable’ and ‘normal’, some of the time.  I was still driven by fear, by wanting to get away from people and my perception of their judgement.  I wanted to be able to control what was around me as city life was so hard on me, it pushed so many buttons that I did not want to feel.  Of course I was not aware of why I was making the choice to move at the time, I just thought it was right for me.

Once I had a home in the country I started developing another facade, again being so motivated by what I thought other people wanted from me, what I thought others  would value, trying to create what I valued in others in me.  I was living a much more healthy life style, growing some of my own food, working and playing in nature a lot, building skills of a country girl, and then I started getting allergies that TOOK ME DOWN.  I started to question what was happening, I thought I was making such good decisions for me and for the environment.  I thought I was headed in the right direction, but I was being stopped by a physical ailment.  I didn’t know what I know now, but I started to wonder why this was happening.

Shortly after, or before, I can’t remember I had a difficult time with grief, my dog, both my grandmothers and my step grandfather died in the same year.  It knocked me off my feet.  I hit another break down where I could not stop crying, I could not go to work, I could not do anything.  I didn’t know what I know now and I tried everything I could think of to stop the tears and ‘get control’ of myself again.  I took a short leave of absence and tried to honor my grief.  I didn’t know how to do it, but I tried, and I learned a lot in the process.  It wasn’t just grief of loss of these people, it was greater, something I didn’t understand and I still cannot explain.  It was the next year that I found the truth.

In my constant quest through all kinds of New Age beliefs systems, Hinduism, Buddhism, Taoism, Sufism, quantum physics, Christianity, I always came to a point where I knew I had to put ‘that’ belief aside, or just over look ‘that’ part, until I found the Divine Truth.  One day I was looking through Apple radio and I saw The Divine Truth Channel, I started listening wondering what ‘this guy’ had to say.  I didn’t have much faith that I would hear anything new, but I couldn’t stop seeking.  Well, I started listening in Sept. 2013 I think, maybe 2014 and I have not stopped.  I have yet to find anything that I’ve felt I have to over look or ignore.  I’ve started experimenting with the principles in my life and have had amazing results.  It is not a religion, or a how to manual, it is not a set of rules or expectations.  It is the lessons of how the universe exists, the principles guiding our existence, how the human soul functions within the universe and how it extends far beyond anything my mind is currently capable of understanding.  In these pages I will write about my personal experiences of healing, learning different truths, letting go of false beliefs, and releasing parts of my facade.  I will explore the joys that accompany this work, the questions I have, some processes of my mind trying to make sense of it all, the breakthroughs when my heart learns the truth, and the advice I receive from my guides.  I hope to share honestly and sincerely without addiction in order to make a space for others who seek to feel for themselves, reflect on their own experiences and come to their own conclusions.

My teachers can be found at divinetruth.com. 

I hope you enjoy!