Here’s a shot of my land before any transformation, my neighbour is removing the fence posts and barbed wire from the bush so it is ready for when the excavators arrived.

For the past two days I’ve been watching and listening to heavy machinery changing my landscape, from clearing out all the old trees to pushing all the top soil away.  It is such a fascinating process, one that has shaken me up more than I thought it would have.  Yesterday morning I was woken up by the sound of heavy machinery in my yard, an excavator to be exact. I was excited that it has actually begun, the first real step to committing my land to being the site of my new home.  Yes, I have had a lot of steps to get to this place, but this is the first physical transformation, up until now it has been ideas and drawings and seals.  Now it feels real and real is scaring the shit out of me. I know that this process of building my home is a tangible expression of me stepping into myself, of being the me I want to be and not just the one who is acting out of old limiting beliefs and emotional injuries.  The cool thing about the law of attraction is it works to bring forward those feelings that are holding me back.  In this case, the reality of the land being stripped triggered feelings of my own vulnerability and the reality that if I am to be the person I want to be, I too have to strip away the layers and discover my true self.

I didn’t realize until now the beautiful metaphor of that.  As the land is brought down to the hard pan, the trees, the grasses, the wildlife and all that grew and lived on it had to be removed, just like all the protections I had built around myself have to be removed.  Like the land, I have to make space for my new home.  One which I can then add back what I loved and design with intent instead of reaction or neglect.  I am opening to the resistance I have to even open to the emotions trapped inside.  The resistance of course is fear.  So, I’ve been opening to the fear, then a little of the emotion will surface which I can then feel and release.  It feels as huge and transformative as the land-works.  I just don’t yet know the emotional equivalent of an excavator 🙂

The first day I took a lot of videos of the trees coming down, it made a huge difference.  I have been taking a lot of pictures and want to make sure this transformation is well documented.  I am excited to see how everything rises out of this new start.  I was very concerned with wildlife that would be forced to relocate, if they made it out in time.  However, I am hopeful that they will build new homes in the surrounding forest.  I still saw so many birds and bugs exploring the new landscape.

As a result of this massive transformation, I now have a pile of wood to be cut for my wood stove, a pile of bush, soil and tree parts and a pit to bury some old farm waste that had been rotting above ground since I moved in.  I am excited that a part of this process has also been cleaning up the land.  I am getting my metal piles removed. The junk piles are getting buried, an old rotting shed has been put in the pit.  So much that I have needed to get done is getting done! It is very exciting and another reinforcement of the law of attraction.  At one point I only attracted people who did not follow through on what they were going to do whether they were paid labor or not.  Now, after working through some of the emotions around that I am attracting people who will and do follow through.  So great!

Today the squeaking bulldozer has been pushing the top soil off and building a hill.  At first I didn’t like it obstructing my view, but now that it is forming, it is pretty cool to have a hill in the prairies, it will add interest and diversity to my land.

Tomorrow, he will be building up the whole site to be equal to the driveway, so that is putting down about 1 foot of clay.  Then the house pad will be built on top of that.